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1. Do you resent me for being called to testify during your trial?
Only slightly. But you didn't belive I am a dark wizard and I was able to hear your outburst. I am not particularly bitter at you.
2. Once you are released from Azkaban and have gone through rehab in St. Mungos, what are your plans for your career and your life?
I don't know. Maybe some children. I would prefer not to sell my divination skills for some time so perhaps I will go into auditing or inspecting of some sort. I would give my leg to be able to teach again .
3. I could probably arrange to send you more chocolate. Would you want me to?
Your chocolate has kept me sane.... YES please.
4. What are you most looking forward to on your release?
Abi, seeing my students again.
5. Just what do they give you to eat out there?
Would you belive me if I told you I don't quite pay attention? Anything vile I try to block out...anything good the dementors try to block out so between the two of us, I don't have many memories of this place.
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[11 Jul 2005|03:29pm] |
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1. What is your name? Mortimer Thitchkiss
2. What is your age? 40
3. What house are you in? Slytherin
4. What do you do in your spare time? reading, studying, thinking I suppose
5. Do you play Quidditch? Why? Why not? I used to, I suppose im too old now.
6. Who do you live with? What are they like? I live both in the school and with Abi, and well.. Abi is incredible, I don't deserve her.
7. Do you have any pets? My Raven Charon
Some Thought Provoking stuff:
1. So you've told us what house your in. Why do you believe you are in that house? Well yes I am a pureblood but slyherin is so much more then that now. It respresents the ability to lead, to be dedicated and clever. Slytherin is the nobility of Hogwarts for we can be brave when we need to, Clever, and as dedicated as any hufflepuff when It comes to our causes. Thease are whey I belive and am honored to be a slytherin.
2. What's your life philosophy? Seek insight and knowledge no matter how contrary to tradition they be , protect the innocent and uphold the TRUE philosophies of slytherin.
3. What do you want to be when you grow up? Or, what did you want to be, and if it's something other than what you are now, why did you change your mind? I wanted to be a healer... and I changed my mind when I saw... their true face.
4. What memory would call up your Patronus and what shape would it take? The memory of Abi telling me she will marry me in that crowded reception area. And When I call mine it takes the shape of a Cobra.
5. Which of the Unforgiveables do you think is the worst, and why? Imperio. Pain and Death can bring insight and perhaps even comfort or streagth. But to have your mind toyed with is toying with the very essance of who you are.
6. If you could Crucio anyone you wanted, who would it be? What about Imperio? Avada Kedavra? If I had my way, anyone who cast those spells with anything in mind but pure defence would find their wand turning back to face THEM instead.
7. Would you rather be stupid but charming, or intelligent but a complete prick (and therefore have no friends)? oh fate... I hope im not a prick.... still, I would not sink to stupidity, no matter how lonely it gets.
8. If you had a chance to change your whole life around, what would you do with yourself and why? Would be in a different house? Would you be nicer or meaner? I suppose... no nothing.
9. What would your Animagus form be? I belive I would be a Cobra as well, the animal feals close to me.
10. What would your boggart be? Why? A mind-healer, burrowing into my life, exposing all my weakness to everyone. Telling them how much of a FREAK I am then locking me away like a sick and witherd ....THING to never be seen again! *panting*
11. What moment do you think you would relive when confronted by a dementor? Watching abi's hand through the rubble, the sight of the ghost at night.
12. What would you see in the mirror of Erised? To be able to be helpfull, in some large and universal way.
13. Do you feel that everyone is equal? What are you opinions on muggles and muggleborns? Half-bloods? Pure Bloods? Pure-bloods have a nobility in their heritage, but it is present actions that define people. If a muggleborn puts their heart and being into something. And stops at nothing to get what they want, they can beat the oldest pureblood scion.
14. Do you feel werewolves should be able to walk freely amongst us? Why not, everyone has their, strangeness.
Some Random Stuff:
1. Who is your best friend? Elly and Marcus
2. Do you have an SO? Abi my fiance.
3. Who are all of your friends and acquaintances? Marcus, Clover, That nurse Bromwen type... I suppose some others but I am fairly anti-social.
4. Is there a prefect you feel most comfortable talking to? None of them.
5. What classes are you taking? Are you an OWL student? A NEWT student? A Teacher
6. Who do you think will win the house cup? The Quidditch Cup? Who do you want to win? Slytherin I belive, and hope.
7. Do you interact with others from other houses, or generally stick to your own house? I prefer Ravenclaw out of the others but, people are people.
8. Is there another house you get along well, or best with? unnn
This or That(plus quick explanation XD):
1. Chocolate Frogs or Every Flavour Beans? The Frogs are soothing.
2. Being taught by Nosfertum or Getting in trouble with Nosfertum? I suppose being taught.
3. Playing in a Quidditch game or Watching a Quidditch game? I would love to be able to play again.
4. Hogsmeade or Diagon Alley? Diagon I suppose
5. Diagon Alley or Knockturn Alley? Knockturn. More shadows mean more secrets.
6. Wizard or Muggle? Save for the gypsies I met few true muggles.
7. Being a Dark Wizard or Catching a Dark wizard? Depends on your definition of Dark Wizard.
8. Desk Job or Job with Action? It would be dishonorable to ask others to do things for me.
9. Muggle travel or Wizarding travel? I still like to fly.
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| WEEE |
[27 Apr 2005|08:31pm] |
Im 19!
It means nothing but it sounds cool!
And I passed Piano with a C. (This is a good thing)
YAY! Now we go to eat sumptous ribeye steaks at Steak and ale.. wee!
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I now know the exact reason that I have been single all this time and why I will likely die as such. It has nothing to do with my weight or face or anything. How did this all come about? Well I was sitting in the cafe at our schools B&N drinking a frappachino with the money I found in my pocket. I had put quite some honey in there, just cause and I look up from reading my book (Lewis Black's Nothing is sacred.. really good but suprising.) And this girl in the line, keeps looking at me. She was kinda cute, looked like a older Catrine (Girl I took to prom, the bitch who ditched.) she smiles, I blush, I think thats it. I am in the middle of reading and I have the spoon in my mouth cause im a taurus when BOOM she walks over. " Mind if I sit down?" now I panic, I don't know how noticible it is but all the sudden this... hot iron poker of fear is jamed into my belly. I look up, she has a flirting smile and it gets worse. I realize that the only time I had ever been more afraid is when the doctors told me I had diabeites back in 6th grade. That is sad, major illness and possible blindness=girl flirting. She clearly picks up on somehting as she says. " You know.. Im gonna do some scarry shit so it might be better if I hid in a corner thanks." and I croak some reply as she pats my back. I see her later talking to some guy who looks much dumber then me. It hurts, that my body and emotions betray me so.
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| PIO! |
[03 Apr 2005|10:46pm] |
[ ] Kiss me
[ ] Hug me
[ ] Lick me
[ ] Kill me
[ ] Love me
[ ] Hate me
[ ] Hold me
[ ] Lie to me
[ ] Be true to me
[ ] Hurt me
[ ] Sing with me
[ ] Dance with me
[ ] Cuddle with me
[ ] Let me make a move on you
[ ] Make a move on me
[ ] Caress me
[ ] Date me
[ ] Go out with me
[ ] Please me in more ways then 1
[ ] Let me kiss you up and down
[ ] Watch a movie with me
[ ] Get me a B-day gift
[ ] Let me borrow your car
[ ] Take a shower with me
[ ] Be my gf/bf
[ ] Be there for me
[ ] Buy me a drink
[ ] Bring me around your friends
[ ] Give me a massage
[ ] Take me to the club
[ ] Have sex with me
[ ] Go to sleep with me
[ ] Let me be your first for something
[ ] Skinny dip with me
[ ] Get drunk with me
[ ] Get drunk and make fun of me
[ ] Let me get drunk and make fun of you
[ ] Get high with me
[ ] Be kinky with me
[ ] Take care of me if i wasn't feeling good
[ ] Let me take care of you
[ ] Re-post this for me to answer your questions
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You know what sucks the most when you are depressed. Good dreams. I had a great dream last night. Another school trip sorta thing and it was just one of those dreams where you feal happy, content and in love.
Now why do you ask those dreams suck? Because you wake up from them, as I did this morning. I felt great and then the internal dialog kicks in. Why does my head hurt? OH seems you have been crying, but why? OH thats right that girl who you thought you might go out with has a boyfreind. And rather then just a normal fall you have one of those youth fair falls where they raise you up high into the air just so then can get more momentum when they smash you into the ground.
I am begining to doubt the sanity of the emotion love, if not its sanity then I can at least respond with some level of confidence.
Love is Evil.
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| Fate has a sense of humor! |
[02 Apr 2005|12:37am] |
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It seems that the Lady Fate has decided not to miss out on the april fools shenanagins. Here goes said conversation.
Carlos: Wow... even though shit went in for a nose dive.. stuff is starting to get better.
Fate: Yup.. it is... And look between the exersise, singing and such.... have some self confidence.
Carlos: Thanks fate, wow you are sure being nice. Wow, even my chars on mushes are doing great.
Fate: Even better, on this online dating shit, that girl you found interesting you will get to spend 2 weeks talking Via IM and discovering she has alot in common with you.
Carlos: Wow... everything I find out about her just makes her more attractive and interesting, to bad I have no chance.
Fate: Yes you do.. LOOK! She is flirting with you...
Carlos: Oh shites she is!
Fate: So you have a long and deep conversation, go the next day and meet for lunch, and look... seems you have a pretty good chance of getting her. Your lonely days are over. You found someone that you are willing to give a try and that is willing.
Carlos: *in a loud and bragging like voice* Really? Weee... yus.. soon I will have a Girlfreind..and she rocks... right fate.
Fate: HA HA! HAPPY APRIL FOOLS YOU DUMB FAT FUCKER!
Which would be followed by a kick in the balls and fate shoving her shoe (stilleto) in my un-lubricated ass. Yup.. if you haven't guess.. things have gone ary. Namely I found out that one of her other errands was going to the fair, with the boy she is starting to date. In case this isn't clear to you, I was not at the fair today. Using her exact words... " things might get a little more serious with this guy" In my.... whatever the fuck emotion I was fealing .. I blurted out that I had fealings for her, so now she is likely scarred off so freindship is also out. So yeah.... Its times like this I imagine there is a god and he hates me, on a personal level. Like fucking sysiphus, making sure my fingers are touching the apple, before having it snatch out of my starving hand with only frusteration, the memory of how close I got, and the reminder that I am quite hungry. All this and now the weight loss and grades are not self improvment.. they are ...meh.. fuck it.
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| SUPRISE BITCHES! |
[01 Apr 2005|07:22am] |
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Thats right, im posting! OH YEAH!
lol well really I just thought I would post, because... well I don't know why, for whatever reason the rest of you do.
Ok.. Grades... they suck, really they do but my sis and I have deceided to work together to blitzkreig this semester into a mostly passing one and for some reason this is making feal much better about myself. To really work and (hopefully) make some progress.
OK.. I am also trying to loose weight, doing the diet thing and I was doing some walking until I blisterd my feet up and sprained an ankle,though now that is done.... you me and a horribly played game of tenis tonight Pioface! And bring carmen too! (OOOH DIS THAT ONLY MY SISTER CAN UNDERSTAND!)
Tomorow is the poservile reunion, I am so there though I need to go to one of those catholic stores and get myself the little preist neck thing, to go with the rest of my pozer-popeness..
Ok and finaly the big news, remember that online girl who I was all " WOE IS ME FOR SHE DESPISES MY VERY SOUL!" well... unless universe is deh suck, I will be meeting her for taco's at moes grill after voice forum. Its cool we are actualy starting to flirt (I think? Remember, I am not gifted with this vagina thing thus 80 percent of what I think other peoples emotions are will be wrong :P ) But yeah, and it turns out she is really worried about what I will think of her. I am a bit worried myself actualy, she seams to think she is unatractive which the pic I saw dosn't indicate though what if she finds me so? And even worse, what if she is right. I know I can be judgemental with apperances, even if my standerd of beuaty is off and as asshole-ish as I feal I am scared that something that could end my exile from couple-dom with someone who seems reaaly cool could end just because of looks. Oh well... this isn't a date atm just a freinds and meeting thing but I think we both dropped hints that if we meet, and neither of us is either a sasquatch (OR thinks the other is a sasquatch) or turns out to be Ted Bundy (Shite.. I might be in trouble here) we might go out.... so... well wish me luck.
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[16 Mar 2005|11:35pm] |
What would you do if you woke up in my bed?
Post your response then then put it in your journal... and perhaps I may answer as well :P
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[16 Mar 2005|07:24pm] |
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I have been off paxil for a while, I think the effects are starting to show, meh.. or maybe its just today.
I have joined a comunity called OK Cupid, met a girl, she seemed cool and went to my school so I sent her a do you wanna meet mail. She said sure but we have not been able to get a time and she hardly mails, I tried to ask her to a opera show thingy tonight but it is 20 mins away and no reply. Meh... I know its irrational but this makes me want to quit and become a bitter nihlist. Sure there are pleanty out there, but I suck at catching. meh
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| THE DAY OF HELL! |
[14 Mar 2005|11:04pm] |
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It is here, joy and bubbles.
Amoung my New Years resolution this year was not to cry on V-day, aside from some close calls, and the fact that I know I will break down when I go to sleep at 12, just cause, I have succeded. Im quite proud of the paxil and my teamwork. I even managed to replace much of my sorrow for anger which proved efficiant.
I got to thinking alot about relationships however and have decided their nature. People don't like people liking them, its icky, having another human being so desperatly atached to them. However in order to fill our empty lives we love to like people, it gives us a default setting for our mind. This is why people so rarely like the person who likes them, how do relationships happen then? Accident. They don't look like they like me, I don't look like I like them, then WHOOPS you end up with an awkward relationship. Either that or your horny, just wanna fuck and need a nice name to give to your parents so they will let you go around with this hedonist.
John Moses sorta tried converting me and I kinda falterd verbaly, I have problems dealing with christians with that smug confident faith. Not that John pisses me off, but its hard for me to debate them when they are there because the dreamer in me fights the nihlist. You see I want to belive in a benevolent god, Angels, Faeries,Magic, Psychics, Ghost, Heaven, The Occult, Karma, Inteligent Fate, Love, Honor, Life Purpose, Justice and the whole shebang, but, my nihlistic self tells me that logicly, most of thease are either inposible or improbable. Is love a high ideal or just a chemical reaction so that we can fuck and keep the kids. Will I keep living after I die? Or will everything I ever was obliterate rendering my life meaningless 3 generations down the rode. meh...
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| OMG WEE! |
[13 Mar 2005|11:02pm] |
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IM ON ANTI-Depresants weee!
Yup I got to start my paxil, sides from a slight headache and a rush of confidence when flirting with a bookstore girl and possible cutbacks on the libido, no noticible effects and my cripling depresion got worse today in light of.. tomorow.
Meh, after one year its back... hmm what did I do last valentines day.. ah yes... pinned after the freckled one. This year I pine for nobody in particular but just for my hopeless romanticism in general. Not only that but we lack any good liqour at home. Meh... I will rely on blockbuster to bust my block of pain.. as well as my absence from WW cause I know I broke the diet in desperation many times this week. I have also been tired more often.. so now I will likely go to sleep.. meh.
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| Diablerized from lyds |
[10 Mar 2005|10:24pm] |
If you read this, even if I don't speak to you often, you must post a memory of/with me.
It can be anything you want, it can be good or bad.. happy or sad, just so long as it happened.
Or maybe a memory you'd like to make with me...
* Then post this in your journal to see what people remember about you
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1. Opening Credits: Pure Imagination-Willy Wokna
Dunno seems like a nice chearfull song to open up a movie with...
2. Waking Up Scene: Wild Child-Enya
A song that speaks of the promises and dreams of the new day, of trying to live each day with some chaos... not tenants I practice but I wake up each morning and want to.
3. Car Driving Scene: Numa Numa- Ozone
Mostly because this gets alot of playtime while I drive, its easy to speed to and even funner when you dance and scare people while doing it.
4. Flashback Scene: Graduation- Vitiman c
DAMM THIS SONG! Still when I want to think back to the days of the old Snack Food Crew, Orchestra Crew and Ostrige Confederacy... this song does it... specialy memories of prom.
5. Nostalgic Scene: Cake-"Frank Sinatra"
This song just feals nostalgic, a longing for dust coverd music, scratched CD's and cobwebed treasures only a sluagh would enjoy.
6. Angry Scene: Eat you Alive- Limp Biskit
More of a rapist sort of anger but it sounds angry.. dosnt it.. dosn't it? Wonder if thats cause they knew they would crash and burn soon.
7. Breakup Scene: White Flag-Dido
A song of stubornness that just seems to go with me, about not giving up on loving someone even as you let go... sounds like what will be a common theme in the 3 relationships I will have
8. Regret Scene: In the End-Linkin Park
Classic, I wanted something, I tried... I still failed...
9. Dance Scene: What you Waiting for-Gwen
Aside from hystaria.. this song makes me want to dance, which is why I do not play it in front of you's
10. Sad Scene: Let me Down Easy- Chris Issak
Another relationship theme, listen to the song it fits.
11. Funeral Scene: Bittersweet Symphony-The Verve
A song about life and why it is lived.. also I love the strings in it.. it sounds like something my coffin could jive to.
12. Mellow Scene: Mad World-Donny Darko
A sad contemplative song. It is also a pop pick for me when im mellow.
13. Dreaming Scene: Caribian Blue-Enya
The song I actualy dream alot to.. it just feals so... changeling and dunno... like if there was better out there.
14. Sex Scene: All By Myself- Eric Carmen
If you have to ask why this song is set not only do you have a slow wit, but you have little to no comprehension of my sex life as it stands
15. Contemplation Scene: Black Hole Sun-Soundgarden
Also contemplative and a great song to brood to in public.
16. Love Scene: Music of the night-Phantom of the opera
Darkish love :) Soft singing, candles.. death and a disfigurment... if that isn't love what is..
17. Friendship Scene: Rainbow Connection-Me First and the Gimmie Gimmies
For me and all my fellow lovers and dreamers :P
18. Closing Credits: Do You Realize-Flaming Lips
Its so... hopefull..just so dam hopefull
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| Look! I wrote a quiz... take it all ye WOD people! |
[09 Mar 2005|12:49am] |
Master-Malk!
You scored 10 Fish-Malk! |
When your characters tell people they are malkavian, they are never believed.
For all purposes they act just like everybody else. There is always that
glimmer however and when times get tough we find out you are the craziest
one out there. You hide your madness well however, and nobody will be able
to see it till that one explosive moment. People will love playing with you
if they can get over how much you scare them. GOOD JOB :) |  |
My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender: | You scored higher than 99% on Fish |
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[26 Feb 2005|07:16pm] |
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Just thought I would give a breif snippet to contrast my sister.. just cause :) My medication is wearing off, I can tell and I am relapsing from my breif chemical stint of contentness and semi-sociality. And just in time for an opera. Even though I seem to be finding my place in music.. I have started to have my mind bogged down by fatalisic thought, I wonder sometimes if the pills stoped delusion or just made me ignore the uglyer bits of life. Meh.. I feal like shit... like either crying or beating the shit out of something. And I feal like locking myself up in my house and rotting there.
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| Because I wish I was as cool as laur :P |
[03 Feb 2005|12:23am] |
x) - you've done
(_) - you haven't done
(?) - maybe...
(_) ever smoked marijuana
(?) been drunk
(_) kissed a member of the same sex
(_) crashed a friend's car
(_) stolen a car
(_) been to Japan
(_) played mailbox baseball
(x) ridden in a taxi
(x) been in love
(X) been dumped
(x) shoplifted
(X) been fired
(_) been in a fist fight
(_) kicked someone's butt
(_) snuck out of my parent's house
(_) ever had a crush on someone of the same sex
(_) ever dated someone of the same sex
(x) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
(_) been arrested
(_) made out with a stranger
(X) stole something from my job
(_) celebrated new years in time square
(_) gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend
(X) had a crush on a teacher
(_) celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans
(_) been to Europe
(x) skipped school
(_) slept with a co-worker
(_) been married
(_) gotten divorced
(_) had children
(_) had sex
(_) seen someone die
(_) been to Africa
(x) had a crush on one of my Live journal friends
(_) Slapped someone I loved
(_) Driven over 400 miles to attend a show/festival/fetish ball
(_) Been to Canada
(x) Been to Mexico
(x) Been on a plane
(_) Been on a train
(?) Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
(_) Thrown up in a bar
(_) Purposely set a part of myself on fire
(x) Eaten Sushi
(_) Been snowboarding
(_) Met someone in person from the internet
(_) Been moshing at a concert
(?) had real feelings for someone you knew only online
(_) been in an abusive relationship
(_) been pregnant or got someone pregnant
(_) lost a child
(X) gone to college
(_) graduated college
(x) tried killing yourself
(x) taken painkillers
(x) love someone or miss someone right now
wow.. mine is boring....
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| My update. |
[29 Jan 2005|01:48am] |
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As of now it is officialy 13 days to the day of horrors. Charming number. I did promise I would keep myself composed however and I will. I will just spend the day at home concentrating on some ME love. Good food, rent some war movies, play some games, RP out characters that have relationships... that sorta Jazz.
Speaking of which, not only do I not get my paxil, I am doing Weight watchers again, Ironicly I am actualy thinner now 3 months since I quit then I was when I did quit. Meh I don't want to do it... dieting sucks, it really does, and mom is giving me thease two "Natural healthy " pills to help me which I am almost certin I will somehow end up adicted to.. joys. Well, it would be nice
Someone on my mush is almost sure im gay... don't know why I mentioned it. it just seemed to stick out specialy since she seemed to be atracted to guys like me if we weren't gay. Strangely I encouraged it, I guess I liked the whole semi-attraction. Hmm perhaps I should actualy put this strategy to use in RL?
Well I am back to the rp and trying not to brood to much though its not easy....specialy with music.. tis makes for brooding. I want to write a dirge.
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| This will be shortly followed by a actual update |
[29 Jan 2005|01:47am] |
[01] Reply with your name and I will tell what song[s] remind me of you.
[02] Next, I will tell you who you remind me of, celebrity/animated or otherwise.
[03] Last, I will try to name a single word that best describes you.
[04] Put this in your journal!
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